I blink twice and refocus. Maybe if I squint a little harder. Yep, that's the right time. Why, I wonder, did God design us the way he did. This would be the 6th time I have taken a pee since 11:08 the previous evening. What kind of sleep was a gal to get, with a pee break every hour? "Get used to it!" I tell myself. "This is not going away any time soon." Besides, with a 2 yr old and a 4 yr old, I'm lucky to get that solice. Then I hear it.
Pitter patter, slam, pitter patter.
"Hey. It's still nighttime. Mommy's tired."
"Okay. But I slept in bed the whole night. Plus I cleaned my room." (referring to our conversation the night before about how she was to do absolutely nothing the next day-today- until her room was cleaned)
By now I know there is no falling back asleep for me. I was not given the gene that Mike was. Once I am up, usually this time every morning, I am up. I keep my eyes closed, hoping that today would be different.
"Mama..I peed in my pullup..sorry"
Nothing was different. It was inevitable that the plans I had made --fantasy of course-- were not going to come to pass. The only Saturday that Mike & I have off together (it is VERY rare that we have the same day off, let alone a Saturday!!) and there was to be no sleeping in, no lounging...reality of children hits hard..lol
"just one more thing mama."
"You know how much I love you?"
"No Hannah, how much?"
Okay, so sleeping in was nice, but the reality of being loved " A HUNDRED"...that's so much better. My eyes open. I smile and hug.
I hear it again..
pitter patter, slam, pitter patter
"Hi Mama. Goud murnin"
Well, there it was. My day had officially started.
"Okay guys, want to watch some tv?"
We all know that answer. And with that my children were heading off the bed.
"Oh mama" Hannah says as her face is 2 inches from mine, her hair itching my chin, her stale morning breath aimed right at my nostrils...
"You're so beautiful. And I love you. And you're a princess. Good bye"
And with that, they were gone.
Time to rise and make breakfast.
Today, I will try to look at my loved ones with the love of a child. The love that God wants us to have. I will remind myself that they were placed in my life for a reason. LOVE.
And I will love them "A HUNDRED!"