" So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strenghten you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand" Isaiah 41:10
Tomorrow, my first love, first protector, the first to guide me, the one who taught me right from wrong, the first to provide for me, to encourage me, to strengthen me and comfort me, the one who brought me up only to let me go, my father, will be undergoing yet another physical test. A bit more probing and poking, hoping to find out what the cause of his ailments are. They are confident that this one will tell the truth. But isn't ignorance bliss? Do we really want to know? Haven't we played these scenarios over in our minds one too many times? They say it will be "better to know" "better to see what needs to be fixed". Who says? What could possibly be better about it? They've already told us something is wrong, that it will be difficult to fix. Why can't we just stay here? Denying that anything could really be wrong. Nothing needs fixing. Ignoring the unknowns. What if.....??
And then I realize. I've done it again. My human, sinful nature, has taken hold, and momentarily I've forgotten. Forgotten that I serve a BIG GOD. The one who "knew us before we were born". The one who "knows the plans for us.." The one who "will not leave us nor forsake us". The one who "died so that we may have life, and have life more ABUNDANTLY." The one who "heals all our diseases", who "sticks closer than a brother." The one who "will shield us with his wings." , who "knows the numbers of hairs on our heads." He who "orders his angels to protect us."
I want to burn these in my mind. Brand them into my soul. Write them in my heart. I want to live the next 24 hours knowing that, unlike me, God has not forgotten. God knows. And God cares.
So, we, my family and I, WILL NOT FEAR, WILL NOT BE DISMAYED. FOR OUR GOD IS WITH US. OUR GOD WILL STRENGTHEN US. HE WILL UPHOLD US WITH HIS RIGHTEOUS HAND.
He has not given us the spirit of fear, but of LOVE, POWER and a SOUND MIND!!!
May God bless you all. Please join with me in prayer tomorrow. Amy.