I'm a bit of a poor sport. This is not news to me. Maybe it is because I'm so stubborn. Possibly has something to do with the control issues I have. Could be the small amount of "drama" in my life.. (which really isn't much) Whatever the case, if it doesn't go my way, or the way I expected, I'm a BIT of a baby.
Kind of like now.
First day of school 2008
OH, I KNOW... there are other choices I could have made. Like homeschooling, or not working. We do have our reasons. And this is right for us.
BUT that doesn't mean it's not difficult.
Atleast for me it is.
(Hannah begins her first year of full day AND every day. This is brand new to her. Isaiah starts half days every day. This is new for him. Having only one child in the house for 3 hours every day is new to me.)
It doesn't seem so difficult for baby #1 and #2... off like a rocket..no looking back.
That doesn't make it any easier.
This is definitely a new season. In many ways. (more on that to follow).
For now, I'm going to wallow a bit more in selfpity and tears. Tell myself I'll be okay. That it is ALL good.
And next week I will rejoice in the new found freedom of having time to myself. (when did having one child become freedom and time to oneself??)
Soon, very soon, I will embrace this new season for what it is. And what God plans on doing in all of us. Starting with me.